im not feeling well today,
slept for the whole afternoon after my morning class.
from 1.30 till 5pm.

i have no idea why im feeling this way..
and a sudden of loneliness.
this is the way of life that i have expected.
and im ready for it.
but im still not so used to it.

ate maggie mee with carrots and 2 eggs for dinner alone in my room.
sudden loneliness struck me again.
msg mum but she never reply.
feel like sobbing.
like..my love ones are all soo busy with their own things..

i was so stress today in my CMA( Cost and Accounting) class this morning,
the lecterur, Miss Wong, talks like a chu-chu train.
non stop.soo fast.we need to be EXTRA fast and alert during her class. its damn tiring.mindf and body. the part that i cannot tahan is, she kept asking us to look-up to the board while we are busy taking the notes down. she will look into ur eyes and ask u whether u get what she mean or not.she will ask u for a few times in a row to comfirm ur answer.if not, she will repeat everthing again.and the weird part is, she always check on me. asking me whether im okay or not and questions. she gave us alot of tutorial questions and assignments to do.
to keep me busy all the time so that i wont think so much.
good thing is, i dont have extra time to msg darling eventhough he is always at a corner of my mind.whatever i do, even if im super busy and pack with alot of stuff, he is always there in my mind, as if he is looking over me and smiling at me all the time. i always praise God for sending ken into my life.but i dont really know whether he feels the same way.

i have 2 subjects for this semester, business stats and CMA(Cost and Accounting).
plus, 2 compulsory subject. malaysian studies and moral studies.
my class is like every monday to thursday, 9 till 12.30pm.
and friday moral studies 2 to 5pm.

i will be at home the rest of the time.
ALONE.
i wana go out.
the question is,

with who???
and WHERE can i go??